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Monday, January 3, 2011

Holding onto Hope

I recently started reading this book called "Holding onto Hope." By Nancy Gutherie.This book was literally brought to my front door and could not have come at a better time in my life. Ive recently come to some conclusions in my life and my new way of thinking and this book touches on that.Also.I have been praying for Blaine.At times he struggles with our losses and he questions why God would let this happen to us.Its hard to answer this question so I pray for him and I pray that God will calm his heart and open it to him.As I read this book I am thinking this is the answer to my prayer for Blaine.It amazes me.I am always asking God for an answer or a sign and I feel like he literally brought my answer right to my front door.
Nancy Gutherie talks about the book of Job.She talks about trying to except Gods plan even when it brings us massive pain.How we can use our pain to be better people and closer to God.And this brings me to my new revelations I discovered before this book came to my door.When Mia first died..I thought I would never be ok.I didn't understand why this could happen to us but I hoped one day It would all make sense.While I wont pretend that it all makes sense now...I can say that some does.Mia changed me.From the moment I became pregnant with her,something inside me changed.I wanted to be a better person and I felt I could see things more clearly in my life.Maybe I knew there was something special about her,even from the very beginning.Now a year and a half after her death,I look at the whole world differently.As crazy as it sounds,her death made me be able to love more.Brought me closer to God.And I am more equipped to help others that go through losses and I think that alone is a big part in my calling.Maybe I had to go through all this pain to make a difference in someone Else's life.A difference in my life

1 comments:

Melissa Joy said...

Hey Allison! I am so glad you love this book too! I got it right after I lost Peace, and kept reading all during 2010, and finished it just after I lost Hosanna. I felt like I should have made more leaps & bounds in healing through that year of reading such an excellent book (one of my most highly recommended titles, in case you didn't know, lol), but realizing that God was still pulling me down into the darkness made me realize that He still wanted growth out of me. I'm not there yet.
Love to you.
Red